Just Dippin My Feet In The Water...

Well I've decided that I'm not sure if I'm ready to jump head first out of the break, but that I'm willing to dip my feet in the water and see what happens. Yep, I've decided to go on a date or two here or there. So far, not bad! That's all I'll say about it, at this point. It's weird because I know what I want in a long term point of view but I'm not really sure about today. Meaning, <---LOL, I just had to laugh cause I was thinking of Lil' Wayne in Don't Get It when he was talking for like six minutes of the song and after every statement he'd be like "meaning"... but any who, I think that I want to be in a relationship but I'm not really sure if that's what I want right now. I have a lot on my plate and it's hard enough just to find an hour or two to make it out to dinner or go see a movie with someone let a lone have an actual boyfriend. So, we shall see!

Some Comments For Your Entertainment...

Welcome to the next edition of comments/notes I've received first we'll start with myspace, and then we'll head over to blackplanet...

MYSPACE COMMENTS

Smallz writes:
how u doin sweetheart

Soulo writes:
Hello how are you, Ill take you as is lol

Can we be friends, send me an invite ok

Soulo

Mice and Men writes:
Hey we just moved to LA from Quad Cities, Illinois. I was wondering if you would check out our music and let me know what you think? =)
-Chris

A Realistic Vision writes:

I just saw your page and was wonderin if we could become friends. You seem like a cool person to chill wit. Hit me up sometime, aight? ttyl

E writes:
how r u tonite

Henshaw writes:
Hi, nice to meet u; just checked in ur profile and saw that ur 2 cute for me to pass by. anyway before i proceed let me get to introduce myself to ya.
Am Henshaw dominic by name,25 year!s male from nigeria,am about 6feet 9 tall,easy going,down to earth,natural,making new friends is what i like,i hope u would like to get to know me as well. so tell me more bout ur country bermuda,wat u up 2 as in wat u do,how u get down,wat u like to do for fun,wat u like and wat u dislike,nice profiles and good looking though take sweet and good care waiting to hear from ya......
Henshaw

Henshaw writes:
Kristin.
i wouldn't wait to tell you what ur looks appears to be.
i'll diametrically appreciate to highly get to know you better.i hope u'd pave a slight ways in ur dear heart 4 me to dwell in peace.

i'd like to end here today while expecting to read from u a palatable message that comfirms both heart together in peace.

kindly hella back soonest.


Henshaw Dominic.


RegimeLife writes:
I like your I am Poem. i also think that your creative,poetic,smart,beautiful all in one. buy just lookin at your profile.


Flashinlights writes:
HEY BEAUTIFUL THIS IS JEFFROW

I WAS LOOKIN THREW YA PICS AND READIN A LIL BIT ON YA PAGE

AND U SEEN LIKE A REAL WOMAN ONE I MIGHT ME INTERESTED IN

IM A REALLY ROMANTIC GUY BUT I WANA GET TO KNOW U FIRST BEFORE I CONSIDER MAKE U MY [[CARAMEL QUEEN]] LMAO

HOPEFULLY U HIT ME BACK SO WE CAN START TO TALK OK 1



My Sick Swag writes:
hi

Dante writes:
wassup cutie how u doing

Jay writes:
hey what's up.and how are you doing?I was just browsing on through different pages on here seeking new friends.I find you very interested.and I find you a very beauitful woman.I would like a chance to know you.and hope we can become friends.nothing more just friendhip.
if that's alright with you?

Real chill writes:
hey im bryan, nice pics.. this weather is drivig me crazylol..
wasup how r u doing

P Dub writes:
My name is p and I just moved from memphis to the VA,woodbridge. Been down here for 2 to 3 days and I

don't no nobody down here. Alittle about myself I'm 5'9 to 6'0 slim and outgoing braids when you get time halla back maybe we could kick it sometime plus check out my 1 song on myspace music
Dredizzle writes:
jus moved to woodbridge and imma artist hit me up at tragicrecords. net and join and got my numba on da page hit me asap cuz im lookin fo people to chill wit.


BLACKPLANET

blakstar992 writes:
hey how are you

xfactor3d writes:
Hi Beautiful! How are u doing?

dabronx77 writes:
Hey Kris...How are you doing love?

Alott111 writes:
how are you?

rnation1 writes:
your picture ''adorable''......

vascamalot writes:
Hello gorgeous. How are you?

2for10 writes:
Whats up .. Im Maurice .. i thougt maybe we could sit down and talk .. see if we like each other ..

you on yahoo ..
YIM: reese_jones


smallblock writes:
Hey, what's up beautiful?

derrickcrouch writes:
Hello Bee-u-tee-ful when you get a moment check out the artists on our record-label " Triumph Records " at: www.triumphrecords.net sign our guestbook and show a brother some love ok? Derrick Crouch

knowledge9169 writes:
how you doing tonight. I know you get this all the time, but you are a very beautiful woman.. I know it means very little since you probably get it a million times a day.

brownsg writes:
Hello how are you? Just stopping by. Hope to hear back from you soon.

ken_charles47 writes:
hello sexy, how are you doing , hope cool? i want to be your friend and more. take care and would be hoping to read from you sooon. KEN

step_daddy2005 writes:
looking good

longpen writes:
hey u are sexy and cute i would like to get to know you.. i take bad pics but if you are interested in me you can hit me up on optribe4 thats my yahoo name.. im a straight foward person and i dont like drama .. i can be silly at times but im looking for some one to hang out with and chill and see where it goes from there or u can text me or call me just let me know who u are ###-###=#### my real name is mack hit me so we can get the ball moving in gettin to know eachother

Mencius writes:
Hello sweetheart how are you, can you tell me more about yourself?

JDubois85 writes:
hi how u doin

U-needmenurlife writes:
Feeling ya page so I wanted to be original but I know I can't say anything else you haven't read in the last 10 notes u got but if your interested hit me up.

MrNasty247 writes:
just had to drop in i really like what i see very pretty sexy lips nice eyes just fine plus smart and kno what u want in life thats wassup just interested in you sexy

nelson123ernest writes:
Hello miss lady how are you doing today hope all is well with you and your family sending you some luv from UMCP and Upper Marlboro you seem like someone I would like to get to know better and possibly build a friendship with if your interested in a new male friend or buddy leave a message
ERNESTO
GOD BLESS
BE GOOD
BE SAFE
STAY BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT


Romeo2300 writes:
hi, how are you?

BayouBoyNewOrleans writes:
Hi i wanted to introduce myself.....my name is Rob, im from New Orleans, but because of the hurricane I now lay my head in Northern VA. I am 23 6ft and about 180 tryin to get a little bigger (just a lil) but im a chocolate skin tone, short hair, no kids, in school and working IT (information tech) at the school, i also work with a PR company managing my own production team, and i do freelance graphic design on the side,so i guess you could say im workin to "be all that i can be" lame right, well anyway i think you are gorgious... but something about your physical appearance and the way you present yourself makes me think there is more to you than just looks....am i right ? well anyway I kno you probably won't even read this or care to take me seriously ( since you probably got a thousand notes today from males or "niggas" tryin to holla) but imma try anyway. Doesn't hurt to try, right ? Well I do want to kno if there is a possibility of me getting to kno you better ? I would love to get to know the real you and not just the pretty face on BP. Well if you think that this is possible then hit me up with a note, until then.....I hope you have a nice day and a wonderful life

So we got a mix of everything from the tame to the lame. Of course when I start posting comments on my blog, I stop getting the really hilarious ones. Ah, well, maybe next time!!!

Oh SNAP, He's Back!!!

A Short Easy To Follow Explanation...

Alice

While I was at the hospital the other night I had the pleasure of meeting a great lady. At the hospital they have people who have the job to be "sitters". The job is exactly what it sounds like. When someone is in danger of hurting themselves or others they have someone sit at their door with them until it is time for them to be transported to their next destination.

I had to make phone calls periodically and check my messages so I could not be the designated "sitter". So they called Alice to come and do it. Alice is a woman probably in her 50's from Sierra Leone. She has a great sense of humor and was so easy to talk to. She was very open about the things that she has seen her life and it honestly made the time go by so much faster listening to her talk. Alice told me about how in Africa and in Sierra Leone especially that the biggest problem that they have is that there are so many languages. She believes that the division that most people have and the lack of organization and being united on issues is based on that there are so many languages. She said that in Sierra Leone alone there are 18 or more languages. She feels that people who live in certain areas and speak one language feel a sense of entitlement and want to be seen as "number one". The only problem is that no one wants to be number two. Alice said that in order for issues in many African countries to become resolved that the people must unite and stop thinking of themselves as separate tribes or by divisions of religion but that they are all Africans. Alice stated that there are so many people from her continent that are bright mathematicians and scientists and if the continent could unite behind all of the bright people and opportunity that they have that they could accomplish so much.

Alice told me about how the president of her country was living in America and felt the need to go back to his country and do something be productive and helpful and he was able to lead his political party to victory over the then president. Alice did not state that she supported one side or another, she found beauty in the story. She thought the effort that was made by this one person was a sign that things could be better and that change was possible. Alice told me about how people used to send their children and family members to London or America to be educated and that there was a time when they were doing so well that they may not have been able to afford to pay their way but that person could work and support themselves while they wee abroad and then comeback with their new knowledge or after they had made some money and contribute to society. Alice stated that after the civil war there that this had changed greatly. Alice spoke of how so many libraries and books were burned down and destroyed how whole cities and populations were wiped out. Alice stated that the worst part about it was that the child soldiers as she stated were "just babies" little babies who were on drugs and had no idea what they were doing. Alice stated what was it all for, what can be accomplished from war? In Alice's eyes nothing. Alice said that now so many have to come to America and work and send everything back to help others just make ends meet. Alice stated that she felt like it was every persons responsibility to become more educated and go back home and help rebuild. To teach the young people who are so easily swayed and fall into bad things, or are taught bad ideas. Alice herself wants to become a teacher and then she wants to go home and educate the youth.

I didn't enjoy why I was at the hospital last night but I'll never forget Alice and our conversation. It really goes to show that you can get so much even out of the saddest situations. I don't have the same idea of home that she has. I felt like I could identify with her though, because it is my dream to not be famous or even remembered when I go away from here but I hope that I have the time to establish some type of institutions that facilitate the homeless in learning skills and making money and having somewhere to live while they get themselves back on their feet. Although I realize that our economy now is taking a downward spiral, I'm also aware that it will not always be like that here, and even when in a recession or depression we are still much better off then so many nations. I feel like because of that there is no excuse for this country to have as many homeless people and hungry people as we do. I hope one day that I can help change that. And every time I think of that dream of mine from now on, I'll think of Alice.

What It's About...

Well yesterday was rather scary for lack of a more descriptive word. I work as a mental health counselor for a non-profit organization. From the day I got my job I realized I was so blessed and lucky to get into the field the way that I have. There are so many people in my Masters program with me who have not had the opportunity to work in the field yet. I really feel like I've been able to and am attaining on a daily basis experience and knowledge that is really priceless.

Well every now and then one of our residents will go into a crisis. It may be because of certain stressors like the time of year or anniversary of dates or it can be because they are not taking their medication as prescribed. You never really know sometimes. Well one of my residents has been having a hard time for awhile now. But overall this resident has been doing fairly well. In the months of April and May the resident was doing great actually, I really saw an improvement in their affect and it seemed that if nothing else that they were being compliant with taking their medication. Well yesterday morning I had to pick the resident up from the hospital because they had transported them self their and was given some psychotropic medication and released due to the fact that they had no clear medical needs that needed to be addressed. Well I took the resident home got them settled in discussed with them ways that they could combat anxiety and stress and went to one of my other residences to get work done there. I called to check on the resident around four and everything seemed to be fine. Two hours later at 6pm I get a phone call that this resident has injured them self and was now resting in their room as if nothing had happened. I THANK GOD SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T EVEN EXPRESS IT FULLY, that my supervisor and I just happened to be having supervision at the time of this phone call. We both headed over and spoke with the resident. The resident had a very blunted affect and was just not very communicative with us at all. We realized that the injury needed attention and had to call 911 we also called mobile crisis to get some information about what our next move should be. Because the resident injured them self the police had to come along with the fire department and the ambulance. The resident was transported to the hospital and then we began the waiting game. Mobile crisis came and spoke with the resident who was still being very non-communicative. Finally we were able to get the resident to agree to sign them self in voluntarily to the psychiatric unit. If not then I would have had to have been the petitioner in a TDO and shown up for in a word a court like hearing that would be held on Wed. at 7AM!!!!! So it's needless to say that I was very happy that the resident decided that they needed the extra support and wanted to stay in the hospital. Well all of that gave me a 13 and 1/2 hour day at work. I got home some time after 2am and was so ready to crash.

I love my job, but nights like that scare the crap out of me. I haven't had to deal with a situation that intense before. I'm thankful that it worked out the way that it did because it could have gone a lot worse and it could have been a lot scarier. I'm happy that I was able to remain calm and cool and give the impression that I was not scared. You never really know how you're going to react to a situation until you are in it. I'm thankful that my demeanor and poise remained despite the fact that I was going crazy on the inside. Through it all I'm still thankful for my job and the experience. Let's just all hope that I don't have another night like that anytime in the near future. : )

Confused??!??!??

I hate it when the principles I have don't match up with the ones that I want. I really want to be selfish right now, think of my own sanity, and what I need to be happy. Every time I try to, however, I can't help but think of what everyone else needs. I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place and I have no idea which way to go next. Either way involves risk and consequences. I'm very confused.

I Miss.... Tomatoes!!!!

This whole thing about there being salmonella in a large quantity of tomatoes, and now all the restaurants are not serving tomatoes, really, really sucks! I know there are lots of people out there that don't like them, but I'm not one of them. My Mom used to cut them up for me when I was really little and I'd get to pick if I wanted salt or sugar on it that day. Tomatoes make a sandwich extra great! I tried to have a Subway Tuna on Honey Oat Bread the other day. It was alright but I could tell the difference without the tomato. The same goes for The spicy chicken sandwich at Wendy's and the Super roast beef sandwich at Arby's.

So needless to say I'll be happy when they clear all this shit up, and I can have a tomato again!

Gas Is The New Crack!!!

I was reading this story from Newsweek online and they were talking about how people were orchestrating these huge scams. One in particular was at a closed fueling station where these guys messed with the fuel pumps and then racked up $4,000 dollars worth of charges. They said that the surveillance tape shows the guys pull up mess with the pumps then all of these other vehicles start pulling up and people are calling other people on their cell phones to come and take part. They pay the men some amount of money and drive away. They were also talking about how two guys driving with fuel drums on the backs of their trucks were pulled over because it looked "suspicious". They were found to have most likely stolen 1,100 gallons of fuel. I was just reading it and thinking to myself, WOW! Gas is the new crack! Instead of people "riding dirty" to distribute elsewhere, people are putting their energy into figuring out how to get that precious gasoline from one place to another and sell it to people at a cheaper price than what it is currently being sold at and make a huge ass profit. Sounds just like the drug game to me.

I Can't Stop Listening To...

Cherish "LoveSick"


And...




N.E.R.D. "Everybody Nose Remix"

And...



Busta Rhymes "Don't Touch Me"

And...



Maino "Hi Hater"

My Life

Ever feel like a secondary player or an unwitting participant in God's plan?

I feel like that a lot, especially lately. I don't want it to sound like I don't realize that God has a plan for me and that, that plan may not have anything to do with my "plans", cause I do. I realize that and accept it, and hope that I'm able to make the plans that he wants for me to make happen, happen as smoothly as possible. It's just that sometimes I feel stuck in between believing that my life the part where I evolve and grow into a more self-reliant independent person, the part where I make a lasting love relationship, the part where I buy my first house, or decide whether I want to have a family or not is either on hold until later in life or permanently in order to keep me in a position to aid those around me better. I don't know if any of this is making sense, I just feel like I continue to try to make moves and get things done and then I keep getting monkey wrenches thrown into the plans because I do have a heart and I do care about the people around me and since it's not dire for me to make those moves I change my plans and alter my life by putting it on hold for "the greater good". In the end I usually end up being the one who feels regret and wonders why didn't I just do what I was going to do in the first place.

I don't know, there have been all these times where I say I'm going to be selfish and worry about myself and what I need and what I want to do and everyone else is going to have to just stop depending on me to be there to lean on, because sometimes I need someone to lean on and more often than not I'm finding that when I start to trust/believe that I can lean on someone that I find myself lying on the floor instead. Sometimes I feel like the people in my life along with God for that matter know that I'm capable of handling some pretty major blows and maybe some of the other people who I'm making sacrifices in my life for aren't as capable and therefor by default it's like hey Kristin is resourceful and she'll bounce back but such-and-such may not so we'll just go with Kristin. I don't know, does anyone else ever feel like that? It's just very difficult sometimes, and confusing.

UGH!!!

Let Your Sooooooooooooooul Glow!!!

Clean version or not, I love this song for one line and one line only...