The most difficult battles are those fought internally. One of the most uprooting of those battles is the challenge of deciphering what you want vs. what you need...
Rarely in life do we get "handed" the opportunity to get both in one. Usually, we have to have a devastatingly tiring back and forth between what we know is right and what we truly wish was right. Do you go with the reality of a situation; can you even see the reality of a situation vs the ideal? What we need can eventually turn into what we want and in that safe place in the back of the mind I know I often find myself drawn there. Need eventually shows that it's got your back. That everything in time is right where and as it should be and that it's got your back. Need is trustworthy and after you accept it you don't have to go back and decipher it, it's clear.
The not so safe option, however, happens to eat at my gut from time to time. My gut tells me it's not the right choice, I'm not disillusioned as to the consequences of choosing the want over the need. Often though, I fall into the in front of my face trappings of the want. Usually the need has to be found, worked on in some way, looked at just a certain way just to see its importance. Want jumps out at you, it says all the right things, lures you in... Want plays to the insecurities and the weak spots you hold and says hey don't worry about tomorrow this is awesome right now. In the grand scheme of things even if the want gets you in trouble, burns you, it's a learning experience, it usually is fun while it lasts, and if you go in understanding how it's going to play out the consequences don't have to be too damaging...
So what to do? How do you decide?
Heck if I know...