A Form of Self Therapy

In class yesterday we talked about articles that we read about alternative forms of treatment and therapy. One person read an article about how blogging can be used as a form of self therapy. Makes sense. People can get on write out what they are feeling or express it with music or pictures or both and then they can get feedback from people as well, so you have a place to get it out and a support system to go along with it. I know I use my blog as a vehicle for self therapy cause lord knows that I don't talk about things nearly as much as I should. LOL! It's much easier to write than it is to say somethings. Don't get me wrong I can express myself and what I'm thinking and feeling and at times I can do it objectively. But writing has and probably always will be much easier for me anyway.

Sometimes I do worry that the lack of emotions that I show on a regular basis may be a bad thing in the long run. I was talking to my brother and he said that there is no way that I can avoid it though. It's interesting how I can analyze other people and situations but it is very difficult to analyze my own life. He stated though that we grew up in house where it's not like you were told not to express yourself or what you were feeling but we did indirectly learn that if you breakdown then you BREAKDOWN and you won't be able to pick yourself up for awhile so you grin and bare it and you move through it. I find it difficult to cry nowadays. When I do cry it's obvious that I am deeply and extremely angry or upset. It really takes a lot for me to cry especially in front of someone. It's just very interesting how it works, I guess. Anyone can tell you I'm one of the most sensitive people in the world. I talk a hell of a lot of shit and have no problem hurting other people's feelings at times, but when it comes to me I'm a softy I can't take it. Even with that being said though crying is not something that I do. Now sometimes I have no choice and I'll go sit to myself in my room or something and let it out, but it is rare. I wonder what would happen if I just never cried again? Would I blow up from bottled emotions? I know what I would tell other people. The answer would simply be well something will happen, what I'm not sure but bottling and stuffing things down is not an effective or healthy coping mechanism. Plus it doesn't work. You just feel like shit for longer than you would probably have to feel that way if you would just let yourself feel those emotions.

Just a few thoughts.