Investing In Me

So I just got my third tattoo. My Mom asked me why did I get this tattoo. I got it because I'm very serious about developing a life of expectancy. I'm serious about being patient and waiting on God to do good in my life and to lead me where it is that he wants me to go.

I've decided that if I am serious about change in my life and about living a more positive life, that I have to make serious choices. I can't say that I want to be more positive that I want my goals to be realized, that I want to be happy in love, life, family, and friendship but not make the initial steps to get there. God and no one else can change me if I haven't made the decision to seek and to be open for that change.

I also realize however that this is not going to be something that happens over night. You don't just wake up one morning and find yourself forever changed it is a process. I've just realized that there are many things in my life that I allow to stress me out, that I allow to continue and I do have control over whether or not I continue to do that. What I am proposing is not to say that I am going to walk around in denial that unpleasant things occur or that sometimes I am in difficult situations that do appear as though they will not end well. What I am saying is that instead of starting out with situations that are unhealthy and unproductive in the first place, and then hoping for those situations to magically become better, I am going to systematically expel those situations from my life. When bad things do occur instead of thinking it is the end of the world or letting my entire way of thinking become negative, I am going to look at the isolated issue as negative and do what I can to help the situation and let the rest go. I will focus on what is good in my life right now today and continue to work towards those goals that I want to accomplish. I know that bad things most likely will occur just because I have made the decision to be positive and to focus on the good in my life. I however am ready to believe in myself and the power that thinking positively will bring positivity. Even on the days that I have to fake it, I will do so because I don't want to fall backwards. I'm moving forward and I am excited about it.