Does Karma Really Exist?

"They say an eye for an eye, we both lose our sight
And two wrongs don't make a right
But when you been wronged and you know all along that it's just one life
At what point does one fight? (Good question, right?!?)"
- Justify My Thug, Jay-Z

You always here that nice guys finish last and it doesn't pay to be nice and bad things happen to good people, all the time. When you think about it though, WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THAT? Honestly?!? I know that I have the type of personality that may come off strong and ready for the fight at first, but I think after you get to know me people find the loop holes. Some people are genuinely too nice, and consistently find themselves doing too much. What's the reward you get? Well normally you get walked all over like a bath mat and you continually get knocked down and pushed out of the way. What's worse is that, those things don't change who you are. It's the ultimate proof that God has a sense of humor. Unfortunately, I'm starting to think that we may differ on opinions of what is funny. LOL! But the question I posed in the title is does karma really exist? We always say what goes up must come down, and what goes around comes around. I'm not saying I'm wishing ill on people or anything but it seems like if karma does come around it surely is taking it's sweet time. As Jay-Z asked when you keep feeling that people are doing you wrong that you are going through unnecessary struggles and torment at what point do you decide to change? I don't want other peoples actions to shape me and change me. I really don't. Sometimes I think it may be inevitable though. If I'm consistent in always willing to extend a hand, will work twice as hard for someone else just to see a smile on their face, will continue to hold my tongue and forgive the disrespect at some point aren't I going to turn into an overused bitter individual? I think the answer is yes. Some people may believe in karma but I'm starting to think that it's broken. Stuff is going out there but it's damn sure not boomeranging around. Sure I've learned plenty about myself and the nature of people, but I've learned a lot of it in ways that I pray I do not ever have to repeat. People are selfish and manipulative and that's pretty scary. Especially if you are someone with a big heart who takes people at the word and tries to trust first and only question if need be. I guess all I can do is hope that all those times that I've turned the other cheek and all those times that I've been the bigger person come back in a good way to me when I do go away from here. Hopefully those things will outweigh the mistakes I've made and the times that I've done someone wrong. Hopefully!