I can't believe that it is almost 2013. The year most definitely started out not so great and slowly got more and more difficult. I am so happy to see that it looks like things are turning around now. *knock on wood*
I'm really happy that no matter what happens in life if you have the right outlook you can always find that silver lining or that lesson. I have had several situations happen either recently or that occurred this year where I am just now recognizing the relevance in my life and gaining clarity on questions that I have had. It's been on my mind so much so that I felt like I should share:
1) The age old saying is that when people show you who they are, believe them, as well as, don't make a priority out of someone that makes you an option.
- I had to learn this one the hard way this year. As for people showing me who they are. This is actually one of those things where I am so happy that I can now see the full scope of some peoples character that are or were in my life. Although one individual I can't exactly cut off or act like they don't exist but what I can do now is understand that it doesn't matter what I do or don't do they are still going to maintain their current mindset. That helps me to not feel bad saying no, or to make sure I guard myself and my feelings first and really ask myself if this person follows their normal way of being and I go along with it how is it going to make me feel after when I am treated in the same way as they usually do? That is really freeing. As for the other individual where this applies to greatly, I can't even put into words how freeing it is to know exactly who this person is now. It helped me to let go of a lot of things that I didn't even realize fully, I was holding on to. As for being made an option by some this thought came to me several months back. I thought about all the phone calls I was making, all the get togethers I was trying to plan and really stopped to see if I didn't pick up the phone or keep trying to contact people in multiple ways would we still interact as much. The result was a resounding "nope". At that point I just stepped back and let those who actively participate in my life be my priorities and forgot about those who were making me an option.
- I have learned this year that there are quite a few things that I wanted to do that I've wanted to do for quite some time or that I have given a lot of thought to. I kept disregarding what I wanted and saying that I had to wait for a better time, for finances to be better, for other situations to be fully resolved. I realized that although I am grateful for everything that I do have in my life and recognize the frailty of life I wasn't really living by reacting that way. By no means am I being irresponsible or trying to force something into a space where the timing just isn't right, but I am taking more chances and doing more of the things that I want to because there simply may not be a tomorrow to do it.
- We all know by now that the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different result. Well I luckily wasn't involved in insane acts, lol, but I wasn't fully embracing some changes. I am one of those people who is more anxious and excited about change than one who dreads it. I like the idea of being in a new space and trying something different and figuring it out. One thing I have not been embracing about change is when you try something different or new at times it might not feel right but that doesn't mean that it is wrong. I have been trying to embrace change in that way so that hopefully I can accomplish somethings that I have not been able to in the past.
