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Dos Equis

I'm not a huge beer person, but I absolutely LOVE Dos Equis!!!! Not even for the badass commercials and Esteban as I call him, lol! It's just really a great beer.

The Tao

The Tao or The Way has been so helpful to me in focusing on my own actions and coming from a place of love and respect. I like anyone else am not perfect. I found that wondering why others do what they do or why certain things have happened to me to be a distraction from the lesson and from taking control over what I can change. The Tao also has helped me to recognize my unique nature and utilize my assets as best I can instead of focusing on what I have not accomplished and have not been good at. Most importantly I think The Tao has helped me to worry less about life and just live it and be open to what comes my way. I know a lot of people feel like they can't except Eastern ways or practices because they feel that it takes their focus off of God or means that they are worshiping something other than God. I still am a full fledged God fearing, Jesus died for my sins believing Christian, I view The Tao as a helpful aid of reminders to change the way you may currently be thinking to a more positive and natural way of being!

~* Etta James *~

I love Etta James! Every time I "discover" another song from her that I have not heard before it is better than the last! I am thankful that I am old enough to appreciate the themes behind so much of her music now. Enjoy!!!!

Hmmmmm

Maybe it's just me, but Diddy's Last Train to Paris seems to have been done and is over with. I know there is a large part of the population mostly the younger part who is really interested in the bubble gum hip hop, and the many "rappers" under the age of 25 that have come out recently, but come on Diddy you a grown ass man!!!

Maybe it's just me, but it does seem as though Diddy has in a lot of ways remade his last CD threw in a LARGE dose of Kanye West, specifically tracks from Graduation and auto tune of 808's & Heartbreak threw in two women that can sing and decided to call it something new! Well I'm not falling for it, and I'm damn sure not going to buy it! That's if the ish ever comes out, I know he's been announcing it was coming for what seems like a year now, and I really don't see why people are still interested. I think I would respect it more and be okay with it if he came out and called it what it is, basically he was inspired by Kanye and all of those that were coming out with the auto tune ish a few years ago and decided to jump on the train as opposed to making up some new train. I hardly want to hear Diddy rap I definitely don't want to hear him sing and even the titles/slash themes of some of the songs I find interesting such as Hello Goodmorning VS Goodmorning or Love Come Down VS Love Lockdown or Coming Home VS Homecoming I am sure I am not the only one who thinks this way, but I just decided to voice it. I'll be glad when the shit finally drops so I don't have to hear about it anymore! Since it is Diddy I'm sure Last Train will sell lots of copies and people will continue to lose their minds over this "new movement" as for me I'd rather a train run over every copy so that I don't get trapped somewhere and have to listen to it!!!!

I Loves Music!!! Yeah I said LOVES!!!

What I'm Not "Supposed" To Say...

You had me at "Kris"! From day one you always have and to a certain extent from a distance you always will. I can't let myself say it to you because you don't deserve to know, you don't deserve a chance! I've worked entirely too hard to put the pieces back together it took me years to get to this place.

And... yet... If I'm being completely honest with myself, my soul lights up when I talk to you! I feel it in my chest and in my gut that you feel the same way too. It's not my fault and it's not my job to convince you of anything and so I don't bother trying. I wish sometimes that it was just easier. I wish that you could just see what I see and not be afraid of it appreciate it and realize how it could make your life complete and BETTER! I wish you had more confidence in yourself, I wish that you weren't scared... I wish a lot of things but I keep it moving. I don't stop or pause or allow myself to go beyond that moment of hearing your voice and being in Heaven for that period of time. When the conversation is over I put you out of sight (sound) out of mind. Because I have to recognize that my heart is fucking fool when it comes to you and doesn't understand that the messes it creates and pulls me into my mind is left cleaning up later. It doesn't understand that because it wants and hopes and loves unconditionally that when it's not returned that it will break!

So... I have to be the strong one. I have to believe in myself encourage myself and continue to make my life better for me! I have to hope and believe that one day it will be the right time for the right someone to come into my life who isn't scared and who see's what it is that I am capable of offering and wants it! I can dream but when it comes to matters of the heart one person can't do it alone, and I refuse to let my heart drag me to those automatic and residual feelings...