Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???

I am a planner. I have accepted that and I'm okay with it. I like to organize things and I like to watch that plan work itself out. Whether it works out the way I plan is not really important. I just find comfort in having a guideline.

Well they always say if you want to make God laugh then tell him your plans. He must be having a field day right now. I have encountered two situations in the last several weeks where I don't even know how or where to start to plan for, the fact of the matter is that it is all completely out of my hands and there is nothing for me to plan.

The first situation is a fairly easy one. I am looking for a sight to do my prac/internship at. There isn't some book of guidelines that you can follow. Some places have placements some don't. Some want resumes and cover letters others want resumes and recommendations. I really just have to make the contact and then hope for the best. It definitely frazzles me and I worry that I'll end up taking a placement that I'm not all that excited about and just doing it because it is available. That is my biggest worry. I want my internship to be a great experience where I learn a lot and hopefully related to what I want to do long term. I am confident though that I can make any placement a worthwhile experience.

The other situation on the other hand is a tad bit more complicated. I can't make a plan for it, I can't control it in any way really. All I can do is be open and honest and see what happens. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, I kind of think that out of sight out of mind. Not to say that absence doesn't make me miss someone, it does. But sometimes when you spend time with someone you realize how much you've missed them, how comfortable you are with them, how much you'd like to be around them more often and talk to them all the time. Sometimes being with someone you care about shows you how much you really care about them. I don't know it's a tough situation.