Time for another installment of Moment of Clarity. This Moment of Clarity comes from a conversation with my best friend and we were talking about adaptability at one point it went something like this...
I think we have in common is our adaptability to situations and I think that we both kind of look at challenges in a way like I can do this and get through it and I know that one of my fears is that I'll hit a wall one day that I can't walk through and maybe i'm not as strong as i think I am, but I think that adaptability sometimes can turn into a blockade and it blocks us from feeling things and expressing things and looking within ourselves and really having a strong sense of self. Honestly, I think, well I'm leaning more towards I know that-that adaptability is what has kept me from finding real love and being in a strong and healthy relationship. Sure I can identify what I like in a guy or what turns me on but I am so willing to adapt to what someone has to offer who I have some interest in that I haven't taken the time to flat out say I need this this this and this in a man and I want this this this in a man and I won't settle for anything but those things. I've realized that it really is me, and not in a bad way or anything but because I haven't identified who I am as someones lover or gf or wife or rather who I will be in those situations how can I expect to find the right relationship? But I'm still hopeful, I've identified the type of student I am what I want career wise the type of daughter i am the sister that I am and so on and so forth so I can get there it just may take me longer than figuring out those other things did but I'll make it there.
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